“You’re not quite there, you’re not on my level, trust me for you I am trouble trouble”
This quote pretty much sums it all up for me. I am so sick of people fucking with me, so I’m not going to let it happen anymore. I put myself way out there for people and feel like I am continuously turned away. Maybe I am just angry, bitter, whatever.
On the other hand, these past two weeks have been full of learning and growth. I have learned that the only person you can count on is yourself. I have craved to be close to the people that are the closest to me and who I have known me the longest. I feel like I have lost the real “alicia” and that I long to get her back. I feel the closest to her when I am around old friends like milly, hatton, vicky, and even sarah (even though we havent known each other that long) I have had the opportunity to spend a little time with each of them this week and it has been amazing.
At the end of the day all I can do is smile because I hope that tomorrow will be better, at the beginning of the day all I can do is put on my game face and take on the world. Some days I win, some days I dont, but thats life isn’t it?
